Tuesday, June 28, 2005
First Wednesday 7-8pm July 6th
Second Wednesday 7-8pm July 13th
Third Monday 7-8pm July 18th
Fourth Wednesday 7-8pm July 27th
The Maplewood Community Center [municipal pool bldg] is found around the backside of the Maplewood library; through the parking lot; up the hill; on the north side of the pool. The MCC is a white stone Bldg located on the street Lohmeyer just north of the municipal pool. We will meet in Room 1A. Ample parking. Admission is free. Refreshments served or bring your own!
Come join our group to find your way to procovery!!
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Saturday, June 18, 2005
The people I pass on my walk are important to greet, even though I may not know them personally. I may stop and talk with familiar people or neighbors. Being open with new people is important to me.
The interactivity teaches me about the level of communication and the mood people are in. When you are feeling good you can talk more openly. If you are not feeling good you may be less interested to talk. Sometimes if I feel down I force myself to greet anyway. Sometimes I am feeling hurt and say nothing.
Interacting with everyday people has been wonderful therapy for me. If someone smiles back it can lift my whole day. A smile brings emotional endorphines and the walk results in physical endorphines. I reward myself with a diet coke when I return. It is great.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
...Why apply for a job where, even if you get it, you will be paid minimally, stigmatized maximally, and risk losing your benefits?
My procovery is no longer viewed by me to be unwanted in some position of employment that makes my family feel good when some child asks them what uncle David does. With jobs being exported and workers being illegally immigrated: my employment means taking the job opportunity from someone else!
My real procovery is social support with friends and fellow consumers. I can be a resource only to peers that may see me as such. Although I can point to a progressive christian leader for my family, they are free, as I am, to choose their own religious path. Almighty God will acknowledge that much!
My procovery is sharing my strengths, weaknesses, and my successes and failures with whatever peers are interested to know them. My procovery involves careful listening and feedback to those who are in need. Let God heal us through our huddling together like a good football team!
Monday, June 13, 2005
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Let's mend each other, support each other's becoming, trust that together we can conquer fear, and see the world as a place of possibility.
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Especially when I'm in an excited mode (hypomanic - meaning slightly less than manic) I have trouble with keeping my days balanced. Spring often tends to bring on excitement. Then there are those long, dry spells. . . (called depression) . With Depression, it's equally tough to maintain balance, because most activities complete loose their allure.
I console myself with the rationalization (or is it?) that there's more than one way to keep balance: (Try to picture the "blind justice" scales.)
- Balance a pound of crackers with a pound of crackers -- The scale stays balanced, but not very exciting.
- Balance a pound of feathers with a pound of lead. The scales are still balanced, but it's much more visually exciting. You just have to have a much bigger volume of feathers.
- Tell me YOUR thoughts on balance. Click on the title for some excellent thoughts.
See more progress on: Lead a balanced life
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Monday, June 06, 2005
What is my hope resource?
I hope in healing. I hope my family and friends will have successful healing for all the quirks and damage from the past. Although the past can't be changed there is potential for forgiveness resulting in healing. The water has gone under the bridge. We must turn towards the hope of the future. The future as well as the present is where healing and procovery will take place. I hope in my procovery.
I hope in the advancement of lagging western religion, namely through progressive christianity. The Jesus Seminar scholars and their 'groupies', including me, have some informative teaching and religious educating to do. The emerging paradigm involves much spiritual transformation and holds the promise of living fully, loving wastefully, and being all one can be. I hope in a christianity having one foot in scholarly awareness of the history and tradition of the church, with the other foot in the current river of 21st century understanding of the scientific knowledge we hold.
I hope in a world without discrimination of minorities including racial, religious, gender, and sexual preference. I hope in the spread of humanity and allowance of vulnerability for the entire planetary population. I hope for people believing in other people. I hope in multi-culturalism and a fair world of economic equities for all human beings.
What is your hope resource?
Friday, June 03, 2005
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Now about the stigma I sometimes feel:
First of all, we ALL have quirks and I feel threatened when a fellow citizen or consumer says or does something of a quirk and I must rationalize to help that quirk be relieved or disarmed - all the while I feel threatened: guilt by association..
Secondly, when I, as a consumer, say or do a quirk and others feel threatened that they are associated with me, I also must rationalize to apologize or relieve and disarm the quirk with social skills and diplomacy.
Third, family and acquaintances with no experience with our quirks, when one happens, often avoid our contact socially. They regroup with more functional people [non-consumers] when they feel threatened to be ostracized from their functional friends. This happens as they feel too associated with the stigma of a mental disorder. THEY don't want to be ostracized or stigmatized along with the result of OUR quirks.
Finally, I cannot surgically remove the internalized stigma that someone ELSE feels and tries to avoid. But I must begin to rationalize and dissolve my OWN internalized stigmas. I must act to relieve the fear and the threatening ostracization. I must identify who expressed their stigmatic thoughts and understand, without fear, what thoughts are happening to drive me away from consumers. I must counter those thoughts with affirmations and rationalizations why I should remain calmly nearby until the quirk is disarmed or events move on to other "unloaded" topics.
We all need the security deep within ourselves not to be afraid of the social quirks of anyone!!
Involvement builds self-esteem. Vulnerabilty flourishes with trust. Inner security is a rational exercise. Peace begins with acceptance.
Hence, I want to address self internalized stigma, and counter feeble expression of the internalized stigma of family, culture and society. I want to be like Tim H and flash the light of a healthy inner security that does not back down from a threat of a social quirk, regardless who says or does it.